My Guardian Angel

Your Guardian Angel
By Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

The Dissolution of Marriage: The End of the Family

I think that any couple that is seriously considering getting married should first sit through divorce court. I don't mean that corny cheesy divorce court you see on TV. I mean the divorce proceedings that are done in the family services court. The proceedings that decide the division of assets, the custody of children and the dissolution of marriage. It is the death of family that takes place there. I think that the seriousness of marriage, and the weight that goes into the commitment will be realized in such a place. It's a cold, matter of fact proceeding that boils down to little more than paperwork and a judge finalizing the details of the divorce. It's like attending a funeral for the marriage of families. It's a tragedy that's what it is!
I've never taken marriage lightly but it definitely made me wonder how people can go from being so in love to two people coldly sitting across from one another with their lawyers smoothing out the details to the end of their relationship. It's insanity!
That's just my thoughts on the topic. I want to get married, don't get me wrong, that is a strong desire of my heart. It's always been there and it always will be. But when I make that commitment, I want it to be for life. Divorce should not be an option. It should be through the good times and the bad-no matter how hard it gets! I am willing to commit to forever and so should whoever it will be. That is how marriage is designed to be. Unfortunately, the system is beyond broken and the children who are lost in the proceedings is the true tragedy in all of this!
It should be simple and people complicate it! Life is not meant to have all this pain and suffering but we sure know how to make it more about the suffering than the joy and happiness...
We have an entire generation of broken people because marriage and family is taken so lightly.

Recently I had what might be considered an epiphany of sorts. It was more like a realization of how I approach love. What it would mean for me if I had a man's love and how it would truly be enough for me. Learning to love God more and more, and the beauty of His great love towards us has taught me that to have his love is better than all the riches in the world because all the riches in the world can not buy love. I'd rather he be poor and all he has to give is his love than he be rich and try to buy my love because all the possessions in the world would not suffice without his love and devotion. I don't ask for much but what I do ask is for his heart and all his love...
Of that realization comes this letter of sorts, or declaration. Whatever it may be, it is of my true nature what I want in life and love...

My Dearest,
I want your love. I want nothing else from you. I want no diamond rings, no pretty things. If I have your love then it is enough for me. If I have it and I know it is true then it is enough to sustain me forevermore. Do not worry about a house or all those nice things for there is nothing else in this life that shines quite like the light of your love. If I can have it for my own and you are mine then possibly what else could you give me better than your heart and your love?! It might be what other women want, but I am not them. Your love is all I ask of you. With it I can make a heaven in hell's despair. For out of your love, I will get all the nourishment I'll ever need. If it is mine there is no other treasure on this earth that comes close to comparing. I will love you and I wait (with great anticipation) giving it all to you. God knows who my heart belongs to and who He will entrust it to. I hope more than anything that it is you that He hands it to. I will love you and want for nothing else in this life but your love. Please do not take it away once you give it to me. For your love and light sustain me! Forever and for always...(you have stolen my heart)


Just a bit of revelation there...but that's the premise pretty much right there...